One, Two, Three.

Let us be frank and ask ourselves this simple but yet intriguing question:
Why do we get angry/unhappy?

Possible factors could be differences in opinions, accumulated stress, wanting the best for someone or even nothing. (yes, think about it. we do get angry over nothing sometimes.)

Each one of us has different limits of stress we can take before the volcano in us erupts.
That's when a possibility of you taking it out on someone occurs, and you may regret it in time to come. That's what i do not want.
But this special someone of mine does not do exactly what the above picture depicts.
Instead, she keeps it in herself and, like a devil awaiting to crucify someone*, she ignores all my COUNTLESS pleas to ask her what's wrong. :(
(* just stating an analogy, i'm not anti-christ or something)

many a times, i'm left helpless and not knowing what to do.
i could try, but i'm never the type of person who could turn the tide by making you smile within hours after a certain fit of anger.
perhaps, this is the weakness of weaknesses of mine.
or there could be more weaknesses, i don't know.
but what i do know, is that my spirit is willing. ALWAYS willing.
willing to know what went wrong, willing to not repeat the mistake and learn from it.

so, i thought about it and the next time a fit of anger happens, perhaps it would help if you ask yourself these questions:

1) Why did the person did what he did?
(remember he/she always want the best for you, let alone hurt you on purpose or put you at a disadvantage.)













2) Ask yourself how long is the incident worth the anger? How long do you think the person needs, to learn from this mistake?
(Putting up temper tantrums over a small** incident, is it worth it? :/)
[**the 'size' of the incident varies with both parties]

3) Lastly, do you think he/she will learn from that very mistake?
(how much importance does he/she place on you? and that 'supposed mistake' he/she made.)














note to remember:
tied as one, this is how it is to me.
*refer to your inbox*

Down But Definitely Not Out.

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When Mr. Reality punches you hard in the stomach and you fall to the ground, the feeling you get is super undesirable. You feel helpless, unable to speak and articulate your thoughts. All you really want is a helping hand, able to pick you up and it would definitely be a big plus, if it cheers you on through your journey. And i'm pretty sure this helping hand is just round the corner. Just that i seem unable to pick up the feint signal that the hand is present for this time round, sadly. :(

Maybe i should just rely on myself to get past these obstacles. I must stay strong. It's gonna be tough but i have to make it through alive. Money is a big factor, and i have to find a solution for this.

P.S. i realised i seldom post positive things on my blog. Mostly negative ones. :/ probably a way for me to take out my frustrations i guess.

May Hell Come Sooner For This Guy.

seems like it's gone forever.
made a police report, did the neccessary paperwork at the police station, SMRT for my ezlink card but my goold, old wallet it's still not coming back to me. :(
grave mistake i have made this time round.
the worst part was when:
DBS bank sent me a letter informing me that someone tried to guess my PIN number after slotting my NETS card into the ATM. and the card was immediately terminated after he/she entered the wrong PIN a few times.
i was like 'WHAT THE F***' man. stunned.

people, oh people.
how i wished the guy who picked it up was a kind soul who realised how important a wallet is to a person.
i would never have done what this guy did, took my wallet and tried to hack into my bank account.
NEVER.

What The (fill in the blank)!

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if i get my wallet back..
i will freaking turn into a vegetarian for ONE WHOLE WEEK.
a single week sounds easy on paper, but it's only on paper.

never been so distraught. :(

disclaimer: the above picture is not the wallet i've lost.

I Assume, I Thought.

I T-H-O-U-G-H-T.

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i thought my stomach wouldn't be filled if i had just ordered murtabak for dinner.
So i ordered another plaster prata.
turns out i couldn't finish half of the murtabak and had to throw them away.
and you know how much i hate food wastage.

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i thought that the emirates stadium was a fortress for Arsenal FC.
whichever team made their way there to face Arsenal, they would be walloped by Arsenal. (or they would be given a tough fight)
so what more does West Bromwich (a super duper weak team) sound?
turns out Arsenal lost 3-2 to them, with West Brom going 3-0 up at one point.

i thought that by calling you and asking a 'how's your day?' instead of texting you, (especially when it being a tiring day for you since you had to work really long hours that day), you could have someone to chat with while on the way home.
turns out i was wrong.
call me sensitive but those two words left me stunned.

life's full of assumptions.
be it negative or positive, we learn to anticipate things so that we can plan ahead.

The Hype Got Into Me.

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iPHONE 4 IS WAITING FOR MEEEEEE!
probably landing in my hands before end of october.
can't wait.
after 2freaking long years with my SamsungF480, it's time for a change.

Bickering Sucks.

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Re-evaluate expectations

When expectations of someone are too high, it is easy to feel let down when they aren’t met. Both should remember that their partner is human, meaning mistakes will happen, and either one of you will feel let down. Having unrealistic expectations will only end in conflict and dissatisfaction.

Stress and frustration

Lots of things make us tired and irritated and we take it out on our partner because we don’t know how to vent it, even though they haven’t made us feel this way. Get rid of stress and frustrations by screaming in the car, buy a punching bag or use a pillow, or go to the gym after work.

Underlying issues

One of the main reasons for arguing is that there are underlying issues that linger which haven’t been resolved. Therefore you both need to realise the problem of not solving these hidden and obvious problems. If they aren’t resolved they will keep rearing their ugly head.

Something To Ponder Upon.

OPTIMISM.

I have always placed much importance in this word, no matter where i go.
if you were always trying to think that the worst is coming and no matter what you do, it's always outta your hands, then you are so wrong.
consigning yourself to defeat without giving it a shot is ultimately still a BIG, big failure.
you drowned yourself in the sea without trying to struggle to stay afloat.
you took a penalty shot with your eyes closed as you did not want to see if you scored or missed.

still, it's still not about praying and hoping for the best.
it's about knowing it yourself, knowing that you can make a difference to your life.
if you ever tried without giving it up.


AWESOME STORY. (from mildred's blog)

A white woman, about 51 years old, was seated next to a black man on an airplane. Obviously disturbed by this, she called the air hostess. “Madam, what is the matter?” the hostess asked. “You obviously do not see it,” she responded. “You placed me next to a black man. I do not agree to sit next to someone from such a repugnant group. Give me an alternative seat.” “Be calm please,” the hostess replied. “Almost all the places on this flight are taken. I will go to see if another place is available.” The Hostess went away and then came back a few minutes later.

“Ma’am, I spoke to the captain and he informed me that there is also no seat in the business class. All the same, we still have one place in the first class.” Before the woman could say anything, the hostess continued, “It is not usual for our company to permit someone from the economy class to sit in the first class, however, given the circumstances, the captain feels that it would be scandalous to make someone sit next to someone so disgusting.” The hostess turned to the black man and said “Therefore, Sir, if you would like to, please collect your hand luggage, a seat awaits you in first class.” At that moment, the other passengers who were shocked by what they had just witnessed stood up and applauded.

RACISM CAN SHIT OFF. :)

The Phiten X50.

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simply love this, thanks girl ♥

back from chalet like 32875439856 days ago.
and all of a sudden, updating my blog doesn't seem so much like a formality.
exams next week, 4 straight days of exams. (mon to thurs)
with the last one on next monday after the four killers.

two more chalets coming up for me over the next month or so.
wondering if i should go for both. or just the BBQs.

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look carefully, is that a HANDGUN? (no pun intended)
ULTIMATE FAIL.

off to study.

不知所措.

I'm off to a chalet getaway for the next couple of days.

It's at Aloha Loyang Garden Terrace J. 3days 2 nights.

The exuberance of your concorted feelings intoxicated my mind, causing misunderstanding which are far from my comprehension.

Mind-Reading's Not My Forte.

I'd be better be thinking twice before getting mad.

sometimes i feel like i'm trapped between losing someone and my own ego.
but that doesn't mean you nor me are right at all times.
is it supposed to work that way?
whether it's negative or it's positive.
feelings have to be expressed/communicated to the other party at times too.
good communication is really, far too underestimated.
perhaps, that could be better.

i wanna get an iphone once my contract ends in October.

The Man Who Can't Be Moved.

sometimes, i have this feeling you would take my words lightly.
and you wouldn't reveal anything.
but i'm definitely not complaining.
i treasure my principles.

where do i stand, just where do i stand?

Through The Shadow.

sorry for the long absence.
caught up with school, hockey trainings, workouts, NDP trainings.
something's screwed up with blogspot.
why can't I edit the word size?
why can't I change the word colour.
why do i see pictures as html codes?

Back To School.

i could well say that my holidays have been well spent on.
two movies, hockey training sessions, just hanging out with the clique, birthday party, gymming etc.
and of course, was able to spend more quality time with you. <3

world cup update.
FRANCE was disappointing, boring football. 0-0 with uruguay.
at least england did better playing USA to a 1-1 draw which was overshadowed by Robert Green(goalkeeper)'s mistake.

KARATE KID - MY BEST MOVIE IN YEARS.
go watch it.
simply awesome with comedy, romance, action, and touching scenes all thrown into this movie.
fantastic.
Jackie Chan movies never fails me. :)

I See That Change. (EDITED)

happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to meeeeeeeee
happy birthday to me.

yeah finally 18.
legal enough to watch m18 shows, go for my driving license, go clubbing, buy alcohol and cigarettes etc.
hehehe. not that i smoke though, obviously. -.-

talking about the celebration on that day, talk about having 2 cakes on your face. (1 smeared and 1 smashed).
1 right in my class (yes, no miracles that day) and 1 right at ajisen@lot1.
and having chilli sauce near your left eye. (BURNING HOT I WOULD SAY!)
awesomeeeee, the good thing about birthdays is that they come only once a year. phew.
'crush' bought me a new wallet and turns out it was my only birthday gift.
will defnitely treasure it. <3

soooo, my UTs are going quite well i guess.
much better than i expected.
my 4th UT out of 5, to be on tuesday.
thurs would be my last school day before my 2-week break.
contemplating whether i should work or enjoy myself.

Praying For A Miracle On Wednesday's School Day.

yeah as i was saying.
pre-birthday celebration at East Coast Park.
tried roller-skating for the second time in my life and i well,
screwed it all up again. the furthest i could skate continously is what, a mere 10metres?
at least i tried! :D

they even had a surprise for me when my 'CRUSH' shocked me by appearing right in front of me.
i was like 'what the...'
stunned. defintely too stunned.

and we went to Astons@The Cathay to have my favouriteeee ribeye steak.

once again, special thanks to all who planned the outing.
Arron, Ian, Joshua, Soon Lai, Xing Han, Ryan, Wee Chuan, Clement, Elvis
LOVE YA PEOPLE.
rock on. \m/

Pre Actual Birthday Celebration.

i will never ever do that again.
it wasn't even me in the first place.
was i possessed? or had i simply gone crazy?
whatever it is, i know that it was morally unacceptable for me to do that.

awesomeeeeeee brothers' outing at ECP yesterday.
they even had a surprise for me.
shall talk more about it once i'm back home.

Fridays Aren't Fridays Anymore.

you know the feeling you get when you wake up on a Friday?
it would definitely mean 'THE WEEKENDS ARE NEARING!'
but for the past week and today, i didn't experience that euphoric feeling.
and why is that so?
i have to wake up early for my NDP training held EVERY saturday.
9.30am at SIMEI ITE.
and you would ask, ''isn't that like the OTHER side of singapore?'' you betcha.

common sense tell us what to do in certain situations.
common sense also tell us that if we have to reject someone's idea to meet up, we would definitely provide the actual reason so that the person doesn't feel that disappointed. The other person would definitely feel worse if we had agreed to meet up a few days back. All the more, we should provide a reason.

putting yourself in the other person's shoes at the times would defnitely help.

I'm No SuperHuman.

Update update.

to those peeps who didn't know, i'm currently in the Hockey IG now.
IG or Interest Group = CCA in RP terms.
you must be wondering what this tall fella is doing, playing hockey. -.-
hockey is no doubt one of the sports where you are bending for most of the time.
and being tall definitely doesn't mean height advantage.
no such thing as height advantage in hockey.
well my main motives would probably be to keep myself in tip-top physical condition, learn a new sport and probably make more new friends.

AND.

you will be seeing me at the NDP2010 this year, if you are attending.
i, (YES! me) will be a NDP motivator at the Padang.
hoping to have fun, fun and fun.

i should probably lower down my expectations of you.
the role of victim was changed from me to you in a single day.
i don't wanna welcome back the old you.

when all else fails, there's still my friends for me to fall back on.

No Pressure, No Pressure.

well, it's not often i get grades like this.
with three straight As for 'injury prevention' and two straight As for 'anatomy and psysiology'.
muahahaha.

to love, is to sacrifice something for someone AND not expecting anything in return.
true true.
learn from this.

Where's My Red Card?

It's On.

There, i've said it. Amidst the embarrassment and awkwardness.
the truth is that i'm not gonna just use words for this challenge.
words aren't part of my forte.
i used the word 'challenge' but it doesn't mean i take this as a game.
seriousness is entirely my cause for this.
but do take note that there is simply no pressure upon you.
you make the choice, you make the decision. :)

mistakes learnt, now's the time for me to correct them.

The Unavoidable Kiss.

To be really really honest, it sickens me whenever you refer me to the six-letter word i currently dread now.
but i do believe that the change is gonna come.
things i do now, they are all for you.
just you.

sports psychology is simply crap.
waste of time i'm pretty sure.
figure out a scenario back in our secondary school days, a motivational workshop.
and throw in some super duper 'cheem' theories for spicing it up.
and that's what you get.
utter crap.

and TAY XING HAN.
if you ever read this, when's our next gymming session?
waiting for a gym session with you is like waiting for pigs to fly.
NEITHER HAPPENS.
hahahaha.
i started already, so if i get fitter than you, do not complain. hehehehe.
P.S. i'm waiting for you at the tagboard. be there early, thanks. :)

Wrenched My Heart Out, I'm Gonna Put It Back Into Place.

Follow your heart; even though it's on your left, it's always right.

and that's one of the best advice one could give.
to put it simple, that's what i'm gonna do.

I'm Taking This On A Speedboat.

If there's seriously a problem, clarify it with me please.
I don't want to suffer no more, especially with your weird antics.

right now.

The Dark Clouds.

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Let me tell you an interesting piece of event today.
a freaking hornet/wasp (whatever it was) flew to my window, carrying a looooong green worm.
it hovered around the window, before depositing the worm in a mini nest it had built at the top ledge of my window.
i was stunned for words, didn't realised it had already built a clay-like nest there. must have been there for days. (nest was about 3cm in diameter, not too huge i guess)
my mum (yes, my MUM!) took action immediately, closing the window once the hornet flew out, to prevent it from flying back.
out came a knife to break open the nest, with 2 green worms still wriggling inside.
they are probably food for the larva of the wasp/hornet.
she scrapped out the nest and put the pair of worms and the clay-like nest in a plastic bag.
job done. (kudos to my mum)
the unsuspecting hornet/wasp came back to the window looking for its nest.
and it was like 'Where's my nest? Where's my food? Arghhhh!'.
finally, it grew tired of finding it and left dejected.



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Well, this has to be the last outing before my school starts on Thursday.
Kidnapper at Northpoint, the only cinema showing it late.
did not know why but only GV shows it currently.
nope, ain't cathay, eng wah or shaw.
JUST GV. -.-
oh ya, pics above are Ryan, Ian, Xing Han and Arron.
at 'Eighteen Chefs' restaurant, with their ultimate slogan - Good People, Great Food.

school's coming so soon.
5 modules i would be taking are:
1) Anatomy and Physiology
2) Health and Wellness
3) Injury Prevention and Management
4) Sports and Exercise Psychology
5) Human Motor Control and Development
sounds kinda fun. i like. :D

okay i know you haven't been yourself lately.
maybe you need a cooling down period.
the responses i get haven't been the most enthusiastic.
or was it the expectations of mine.
just like how a child expects to get a Playstation3 for his birthday, but got a nintendo game boy.
poor child. his big dream dashed just like that.
it was like blowing hot and cold all in a single day.
the way you talk sometimes, drills right into my head.
the 'tsks', the 'no-eye-contacts', these are small details i notice about you, in case you didn't know.
try, i did. maybe it wasn't enough. :(
now that was the cold.
and when you blow hot, i feel much more appreciated and i would wish how time could stop and pause at that moment. knowing the 'cold' would not come.
still, i learnt that one must learn to treasure what one has right now.
with huge expectations, come greater disappointments if things aren't to fall nicely into place.
let's hope things would turn out fine, as it was once before.

School Starts In 9Days.

Crying out all the profanities in the world wouldn't soothe me now.
Every morning, i wake up to a new day awaiting for the afterstorm.
I still see light at the end of the tunnel though. :D

School starts in 9days.
new class, new modules.
aiming to do well, with modules i'm interested in.

Joke Of The Year.

joke.
what a joke.

http://www.clicknetwork.tv/watch.aspx?c=6&p=4&v=307

USS On A Sunday.

back from Universal Studios Singapore.

pics on facebook.

oh and, i've fully recovered from that horrific ordeal.
YIPPEEEEEEEE.

Worst Day In As Many Years.

damn food poisoning.
i was wondering what the hell did i eat.
could it be the instant egg from the cup noodles?
or the KFC meal just last night?

whatever it is, i've still suffered.

when walking from my room to the kitchen becomes a marathon,
bathing becomes a chore,
and everything you eat seems tasteless.

Sore Legs Doesn't Make Your Day.

started work at Resorts World Sentosa recently.
as the title stated. :(

WARNING:
THE PICTURE BELOW MAY BE EXTREMELY GRAPHIC TO SOME.














On the 27th of February, Arsenal's Aaron Ramsey suffered a broken leg after a crunching tackle from Stoke City's Ryan Shawcross.

A promising youngster who's career has been halted temporarily from this incident.
Thus, i would like to wish this 19-year-old Welshman a speedy recovery.

GET WELL SOON AARON RAMSEY!

Marcus.

He's turning ONE in march.
:DDDD

All's Well that Ends Well

alrights.
at last, made my ATM card after 1065 years.
yet to start work, delays after delays.
goddamnit. -.-

totally inspiring.

Stay True.

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It started off with a grave mistake.
then miscommunication snowballed it.
it's been really hard on you and i can tell.
i really should be the one knowing who to give priority to,
and not get carried away, making me seem like a blindman without his stick.

All along, i really did treasure you and wasn't sure my actions were proof to that.
or maybe it just wasn't adequate.
by the time the error was already made, i already had the slightest suspicions that you weren't very sure about my decision.
you kept mum about it but my suspicion grew.
it was really inevitable that the truth will emerge sooner or later.
by the time it came, my suspicions were confirmed.

i guess i was wrong.
apologies would have no meaning unless i really mean it.
i shall await for the arrival of 25th.

Change.

Yeah, i'm back.
finally got a job at the Resorts World Sentosa.
will be starting work as soon as mid-February.

and tomorrow's my first UT3.
big, big test for me.
a single UT3 carries 50% to 60% of a module grade.
screw it up and basically, you screwed yourself.
a module retake would be imminent.
possibly in year 3, from what i've heard.
chemistry, biology and maths are definitely my worst fears.

















hmm, last day of school was on last friday.
this very picture was taken on tuesday. (sorry for the bad quality)
pizza hut treat from our class mentor, Mr Kwong himself.
pretty nice guy, teaches with great patience as well.

speaking of Arsenal's loss to Manchester United.
it was really upsetting man.
up next, Chelsea vs Arsenal.
a win would do Arsenal a hugeeeee favour.

i'm off.

Well, it's all settled.

To start if off.

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dreaded Understanding Tests 3 (final-year exams) on 8Feb to 12Feb.
which also means my 2 month plus vacation kicks off on 13Feb.
then i'm off to find a part-time job.

and just to let you peeps know more about my YEAR2 modules.

A103	Anatomy and Physiology
S201	Health and Wellness
S211	Injury Prevention and Management
S214	Sports and Exercise Psychology
S311	Human Motor Control and Development

ooh, i'm drooling.
5000 times much better than my usual maths and triple sciences.

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Sometimes, the more we expect, the more disappointed we will be.
that's just if all things doesn't go our way.

right now, expectations would be at an all-time low.

School? What's That? Can Eat Is It?

Okay. alrights.
first post of 2010.

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the bbq with my closest friends and my dearest was simply great.
didn't really count down the new year, just that when the clock struck 12, we all shouted 'HAPPY NEW YEAR' to those around us. (including the auntie who was watching her tv on the 12th floor of the HDB block.)
hehehe.
though the food was a tad bit tooooo much.
a random fact which i got from Rezal:
Muslims are not encouraged to celebrate the New Year too enthusiastically. If they did so, they would be showing disrespect to their own Muslim calendar.
hmm, gives something to ponder about. :/

on the 2nd of Jan, came another match with Chuankai's team.
although we lost 2-4, i felt i played quite well as a central midfielder.
scoring a rare goal for the team was incredible.
it all started with a cross from the right into the edge of the box.
initially, Sufyan wanted to gain control of it.
but upon seeing me rush to the ball, he immediately shun away, knowing i would strike the ball towards goal
struck the ball, i did.
plonked towards the top right hand corner of the goal.
and i was all smiles. :D